I'm 28 years old and for the greater part of my life I have been a crippling perfectionist. I have felt, from the time I was 7 years old, like a walking contradiction. There I was, a natural born artist with a love of expressing myself through paint, but was often too anxious about my work being perfect that it would paralyze me from creating. I never felt like my lines or my drawings were good enough. And as an adult I carried that through with me. I always felt like someone could paint my ideas better than I could until one day, very recently, that changed.
Sometimes, be it fate or chance, you meet people who change the course of your life forever. Almost a year ago I met a boy, another designer in his own right, and fell in love. I'm not one to advocate that love heals all because I think that your life, your happiness, is ultimately up to you. But sometimes you meet someone who holds a mirror to you and shows you what you are capable of, and no other scenario can do that quite like love can. Love is transformative. Love, and I mean real love, forces you to grow, to confront yourself, who you were until you met that person, and who you want to be as a result.
For those of you who have been following my career and my blog for the past several years, and even those of you who recently started the journey with me through my Instagram, you may have noticed that I paint nearly everyday now. I paint without reservation. I paint without inhibition. I paint straight to paper because I'm no longer scared of the flaws. I no longer believe someone could paint my thoughts better than I could because there is only one me as there is only one version of you. I am experiencing my Spring Awakening and have one person to thank, you know who you are.
Now that the weather is warming, try taking sometime to yourself to quiet the noise and hear your own voice. Listen for the fire burning for what you love most in life, deep down, your passion, and follow it. You will get lost only to be found. I promise.
Much love,
Meag xx
Amazing draw!!
ReplyDeleteKisses
http://www.summerwine.es/
@Barbara R. Portela thank you so much sweetheart xx
DeleteNice blog! Your work is amazing!
ReplyDeletehttp://kissthestarsblog.blogspot.ro/
@Andreea thank you, you're so sweet xx
DeleteBeautiful! You inspire me!
ReplyDelete@Debbie Stokoe thanks darling, so happy we've connected xx
Deletethis is such a beautiful illustration! Have a great day. :)
ReplyDeleteI AM ALSO ON: Instagram @kennydaily, Bloglovin and Facebook (i follow back, just let me know your links)
xoxo;
What Kenny Hearts a Lifestyle Blog
@What Kenny Hearts thanks, you too xx
Deletethese are really awesome!
ReplyDeletexx fameliquorlove
@Danielle May thanks lovely xx
DeleteBeautiful words, Meagan. I've been working on something similar, trying to not judge my work before I even start it. I still have a long way to go :]
ReplyDelete@Lizz Visions thank you for sharing. You know you're already half way there by acknowledging that you need to try and let yourself be free. It takes time and practice but you will get there xx
DeleteYou are one of my most favourite fashion illustrator Meagan. You´re an amazing artist. I love your illustrations and posts, they´re so inspiring.
ReplyDeleteI'm perfectionist too, shy and sensitive. When I graduated I wanted take a break from art and pursue to my other passion like dancing and foreign languages, travel, have more time for my friends and be more open. Last year I dared to found the blog and don´t be shy any more and share my passion.
I didn't draw for a long time and I´m angry to myself now. I have hard hand, I´m scared of the flaws or my work looks broken and I´m not satisfied.
Sometimes my family tell me I should give it up. But, I don´t!:)
It´s a hard work, but I just follow my dreams:)
xxMonica
http://sunstreetmonidesign.blogspot.com
@Monica L. good for you!! Thank you so much for sharing your experience here. I'm incredibly touched and I truly hope that you do continue to draw and follow your heart. Always live in your passions and you can't go wrong. I will follow your blog too and hope to keep you encouraged and inspired along the way. Sending much love your way xx
DeleteThank you so much dear Meagan for your nice comment and for following me! I really appreciate it!:)
DeleteHave a great new week!
@Monica L. you bet sweetheart! I believe in you just keep following your passions! xx
DeleteThis looks great!! Awesome illustration
ReplyDeleteWishing you a blessed week ahead of you,
kisses from Miami,
Borka
www.chicfashionworld.com
@Borka Gamero thank you sweetheart you too xx
DeleteLoved what you wrote! Everything is so true! I'm definitely doing that in life now. There's a fire burning inside all of us.
ReplyDeletehttp://www.averysweetblog.com/
@Kim Alston it makes me so happy to read that you feel this way too. Hold onto it because the fire burning is your truth xx
DeleteAw wow Meagan, that is such a beautiful and inspiring story! You give the rest of us hope. I am also very much a perfectionist, I have written several kids books but never had the courage to show them to a publisher, this post has really made me feel more motivated. You are an amazing artist and should never ever doubt that astounding talent! It was great hearing your thoughts, have a splendid week ahead!
ReplyDelete@Sam that is amazing!! Show your kids books to publishers and keep showing until someone gives you a chance!! You will never know what could have been if you don't try but you know it won't happen if you don't. Keep trying sweetheart xx
DeleteI don't know why I haven't yet...still need to some editing. Thanks for your motivational vote! Don't worry if you don't have time to complete it, whenever you are free.
Delete@Sam thanks hun, I will be sending it over to you today xx
DeleteThis post was exactly what I needed today. I am so glad you found the strength that was always inside of you. While I do not paint (I dance), finding that strength can be a total game changer. Tonight, I want to get lost in my dance class.
ReplyDeletehttp://lamentinglizzie.blogspot.com
@Elizabeth Hisle I'm so happy to heart that! I would love to see a video of your dancing. Watching someone living in their truth is the most exciting thing! xx
Deletehey! I didn't know your blog but I fell in love! the headder, the illustrations and everything is beautiful!
ReplyDeletecongrats!!
www.hypethelook.com
xoxo from México!!
@Jennifer Aranda thank you, you're such a sweetheart. I will check out your blog as well! xx
DeleteGrowing up I felt the same way, but I still fighting the perfectionist in me!!!
ReplyDeleteGlad you made it!!! xoxo
@Marija M. you will win it over, you just have to keep pushing through it xx
DeleteOMG Megan you are such a great artist!! I will love to talk about you on my blog :D
ReplyDeleteI'm following you now, I hope you can follow me back and stay in touch. Your work is amazing! www.photodannyfoto.com
@Danny Foto you are so sweet thank you!! I would love to follow your blog. I will head over now and sign up to follow xx
Delete@borka gamero thank you, you are such a sweetheart xx
ReplyDeletei'm following u back dear!
ReplyDeletekeep in touch!
MY-Emily
@Emily Tang great, you bet xx
DeleteYou have a wonderful blog!! :)
ReplyDeleteWould you like to follow each other via bloglovin, gfc, instagram, twitter, facebook and g+? Do visit my blog and let me know!! :)
Keep in touch
Charu
http://www.myglossyaffair.com/
@Charu Sharma thanks so much, I will check out your blog now xx
DeleteWhat a beautiful post Meagan. Right now it's 11:15 in Paris, and I needed to read such beautiful thoughts tonight :)
ReplyDeleteThanks to made it, xxx
@Gigi Mind thank you sweet Gigi, it is always such a treat reading your beautiful comments!! Have a restful sleep xx
DeleteThis post was RIGHT on time, Meagan. Thanks so much for sharing and being so open and encouraging.
ReplyDelete-- Veronica.
@Veronica Marche amazing to hear that, I hope that it helps in some way. Growth stems from being honest with yourself xx
DeleteI love this! So awesome <3 You are so talented :) We are following you back on GFC! <3
ReplyDelete@Urszula Makowska thank you, that is so incredibly sweet of you to say! xx
Delete